Trapped in an unhappy marriage to a man incapable of giving her the love she craved, Yolaine became depressed.  Her ego was not in alignment with her higher self or her sacred purpose.  Depression is a type of battle fatigue or anger turned inwards, with the original fear suppressed.  She learned that every thought is a choice.   Yolaine killed herself through mind/body autogenic training, shutting down her heart.  The room filled with light and she saw Jesus, who told her:  “Don’t waste your life thinking you’re not loved.”  This experience and message transformed her, and took her out of the victimhood.  She understood how precious the gift of life was, and came back to the States to start over, eventually divorcing her husband.

Depression can be an addiction, a way of not feeling and not being responsible for solving your problems.  Seemingly bad things are choices; and opportunities to learn and grow.  What are your unique values, talents and passions?  Have confidence in your own inner wisdom.  When you’re on your right path, synchronicities and miracles follow.  You are never alone and always guided.  Follow your passion when it feels right.  Don’t listen to you ego’s doubts, the “yeah buts.”  When you know who you are and what furthers your purpose, you can’t lose.  In fact, when you are confident in yourself, fear has no ground to stand on, and you can live fearlessly.  Yolaine learned that “if only we knew the power of our thoughts,” we could change our circumstances and find joy, love, health and safety.


“I am profoundly moved and persuaded by the near-death experience.” –- Huston Smith, author of The World’s Religions and Tales of Wonder: Adventures Chasing the Divine

“I have never interviewed anyone who had a near-death experience who told me that they came back to make more money or to spend more time at their jobs away from their families… Instead, they become convinced that they need to be more loving and kind. They react to their experience by living life to its fullest. They believe their lives have a purpose, even if that purpose is obscure to them. Invariably it involves concepts such as love of family or service to others. They seem to know that the love they create while living will be reflected and radiated back to them when they die.” — Melvin Morse, M.D., from his book, Parting Visions

“I went into this tunnel, and I came into this room that was just beautiful. God held me, He called me by name, and He told me, ‘Mary Jo, you can’t stay.’ And I wanted to stay. I protested. I said, ‘I can’t stay? Why not?’ And I started talking about all the reasons; I was a good wife, I was a good mother, I did 24-hour care with cancer patients. And He said, ‘Let me ask you one thing — have you ever loved another the way you’ve been loved here?’ And I said, ‘No, it’s impossible. I’m a human.’ And then He just held me and said, ‘You can do better.’ ” — Mary Jo Rapini, describing her near-death experience

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